North America | United States of America (USA) | California | Sacramento – Thoughts before Peace Corps
I’m 12 days away from leaving my life here in Sacramento to embark upon an adventure in Nicaragua. Nicaragua being a place I have known virtually nothing about, yet now I am forever connected to it by my 27 month commitment to live among the Nicas. I feel my departure date coming closer and closer. I wish it would just get here now!! Yet, I know it’ll be here soon enough. I can already feel that lump in my throat saying goodbye to my crying mother. I have no idea how I’m going to say goodbye to everyone. Goodbyes and I have never mixed well.
I have traveled to Spain, France, and Mexico. And while I loved the historic museums, late night club scenes, different cultures, and international friends made along the way…a desire started to arise in me. This desire best described as a feeling of a search for a deeper meaning to my life. I have had everything a person could want; a roof over my head, food to eat, etc. But I kept wondering how I could go through the rest of my life without ever experiencing a different reality outside one of relative privilege.
So now I’m leaving this reality I live in to see the world from the perspective of a third world country. I want an experience that is going to challenge me intellectually, emotionally, and physically. Why? I don’t really have any concrete answer other than I feel that my Peace Corps journey is going to bring me knowledge that I wouldn’t be able to experience anywhere else. I want to have the experience of not having all the luxuries I have had throughout my life. I want to see what another part of the world lives like. I want to taste it, to smell it, to live it.
When I look back on my life I want no regrets…I want to know in my heart I gave it all I had.