Europe | Germany | South | Heidelberg – Sappy thoughts… goodbye is in the air…

Europe | Germany | South | Heidelberg – Sappy thoughts… goodbye is in the air…

Well, as life has dealt me hands before and I have learned to play the game, once again thing are changing. The rules are about to change, and the players, well, the game must go on, that I can’t dispute. But it is about to continue quite a few players short. And these aren’t just any players, they are special ones. Becuase they are more than ami’s, more than AJYers, they are my friends, and they are a large part of the game I play every day, and especially every night… And as they enjoy their last week here with us yearers that are staying, I hope their experience was everything they hoped for. But for some reason, it is their time to leave this dream called Heidelberg…

And, why? I have asked myself that a lot lately. Why do the players have to leave? Especially when everything is going so well and life is the best it has ever been. I can’t remember a time I have been as happy as I am now. True, I have made adjustments in my life so that I could be happy, but there is no question or doubt in my mind that a large portion of this happiness is due to the people aroundme…

But back to the question, why? First off, there is an answer, becuase I believe everything happens for a reason, therefore there is always an answer to a question. They have to go, becuase this is no longer their game. They weren’t meant to play any longer, they are awaiting a new deck of cards, a hand to be dealt, and new players to compete and learn with…

So as a result of the changes that lie ahead for everybody, it has been a little emotional around here. I am the kind of person who gets attached, says goodbye and cries, and then moves on, and this time will be the same… but, there is a deep bond here, and i am not looking forward to them all leaving. The difference between this time and others in my life is how we all came here alone, unprepared, unfamiliar with the german language and culture, no real travelling experience, and scared shitless…. and now, we have learned together, grown together, are surviving confidently in a german city, being independant, but also like a family.

I see these people in the morning, then in afternoon classes, and at nights when we go out together, get a bit tipsy and laugh until we hurt, stay out too late, and get 3 am doners from the turkish imbuss stand… so it is different than other times… and the coolest part is that we are all so different. If we all went to college together, we wouldn’t hang out in the same crowds…

Last night I had a dinner party with my media class, it was all fancy and fun, the way I imagined life here in Europe woule be… It lasted six hours, and afterwards I retreated to some good american friends.
and we stayed up just talking and reflecting about life… and all the adventures we have had, and trust me, there have been a lot!!!!! the drunk nights, the breakdowns, the happy times… it’s been great.. then the guys and me walked across the bridge towards my place and I watched them all eat a doner, and I coulen’t help but think to myself that it might be the last time I watch them eat like that, and it hurt, somewhere deep down…

And so goes the game, so goes life, neverending, defined by time, yet confined by nothing… I am awaiting to see what lies ahead, how the game will go. Because, it is true that whether I win or lose, at least I got a chance to play the game, and play it I did, with the best damn people in the world.. And as they all leave to wherever they have to go, I hope they know what a riot it was, and what worthy companions they were…

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